No not sure about that now, I feel as though I should be placing a request with the cosmos (yes that is something I have done & it worked *bah-humbug as you wish*), so do I want to address this to the ether?
Fuck it, who needs a "Hi". If you're reading this then thanks. This will be a mix (no doubt) of my thoughts, happy moments, rants, findings & life questions etc..
Where do you start a blog with no focus & nobody to say Hi to?
I did (& may still in time) think of doing a cooking blog, which would have made starting a bit easier I guess. As this is life/diary blog & I can't be arsed to go back 34 *ekks almost 35* years, I'll start with what's making my glass half empty at the minute & I hope that will be peppered with the things that battle on to keep it half-full! (Too deep?) I guess there will be patches where I digress to a previous time to explain myself & I hope anyone that has read this far can follow my erratic pattern (type as I talk, or so I'm told).
My Grandad died a few weeks ago & this was only the second death that had really touched my life (both within 9mths & both great men). I spent the first 18 months or so of my life living with Nan & Grandad, followed with frequent holiday & weekend stays when possible, so they both are a huge part of me. My Grandad was a leg to hide behind, a teacher of plants & life skills. Along with Nan he gave me an open mind, yet avid interest in religion & the loss of him has really hit me hard. In my heart I know he'd be blowing a raspberry flicking the v's & telling me bollocks to moping gal enjoy your life. The last thing he told me was he was proud of me & glad I'd moved north as it had been the making of me, a happy me he'd been pleased to see again........ :'( yet :) too
*ahhh "The roller-coaster of grief "*.
Thankfully my life is blessed with many great things & these all help to bring us through, if we only open our eyes. For instance I have a remarkable family! A husband who's my rock, two children at home who live life by the second & have no time for what happened an hour ago, never mind last week & lastly (but by no means least) my newest baby Eastar my horse. More about all of them in time I'm sure.. On top of all that I live my life dream! Don't get me wrong I would like (need) more cash, we have no assets since we sold up & moved north & I worry about losing my job & the home/life that goes with it, but there's time... Plus I like to believe life has a way of throwing chances in your path, if you are open to seeing/asking for them (back to comsic ordering), so although I fret I also hold out a little hope still.
I love my job 99% of the time (not many can say that) & as I say above I see it like a huge dolls house/ a dream home I could never afford, but can play at cleaning & setting it just so (is that mad?). My boss is also very nice & extremely fair, so life isn't to hard there.
So you see I try /can see the sun, but of late I seem to sigh a lot & that grey cloud is never to far away.
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